Kinda Moving

So if you've been wondering "Where the hell is Tansy" Or if you haven't, time for a bit of an explanation. I've just sorta fallen in love with dragon age guys. and with a certain character Its kind of odd for me I mean this DOES NOT happen. I'm not some silly fan girl falling head over heals over the guy from the latest fandom. I've had fandom kiddy crushes, they usually last about a week, only a few made it past a month and they feel completely different. I was starting to think I was asexual. (Romantic yes sexual no) Then BOOM I happen to find someone who is everything I wanted in a guy, (Which I didn't know I wanted) Only said guy is not real. But the feelings are real.  And I started to feel things for the first time that don't exactly fit with being asexual. As you can imagine this is a huge emotional experience for me. It was odd because said character does not fit my usual patterns with crushes and even has two traits that I used to find turn offs and likely still do in anyone else.